Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Feeling Home

Home is inside myself and for the first time in I can't remember when, I feel home. I don't feel rushed, I don't feel frazzled, nor stressed, nor overwhelmed. I felt that for years....and I do mean YEARS. Teaching little children in a public school...anywhere...is stressful. Trying to keep all the balls up in the air at the same time, both at home and at school, is sometimes overwhelming. And I'm not so sure how much I really loved doing either of those. There, I said it. I love little children. I love being around little children. I don't love the stuff required in teaching today...all of the "stuff". I questioned too many things and wanted to do things my way. Not in a stand-off-ish way, not in a "my way or the highway" way. I just thought I had good instincts. And I did.
I've got to learn, once again, how to post pictures on here. I think I recall some things, but who knows!

2 comments:

clare said...

Hi Aunt Lana! Glad you are blogging again. I have always forgotten to mention that I thought your Christmas letter was by far the best and funniest we have ever received. There is nothing better than being "home".

Jeanne said...

Lana I am still working on feeling completely at home. I see glimpses of it now and then. Lately I have felt very frazzled and just a little overwhelmed - not sure why - maybe juggling a job, keeping a home, and too much thinking about the "what ifs" lately.

I completely agree with you - too much STUFF involved with teaching kids today. I think kids learn by doing, by example and by experiencing. They need to learn to love life first, the simple wonders of nature, the little things that last a lifetime!

You have great instincts - I think that's why I love you so! Your heart touches my heart...

Love you my friend! Great post...